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Just how well do you think you know someone? You can live with someone all your life or be friends for eons, but one day, you wake up, or a moment hits, and you think – who are you?

Everything that you once believed is true, assumptions that you made, conclusions that you have drawn, expectations that you had or thought you had to fulfil,  turns out to be, well, not so right. And you wonder – What went wrong? Did I try hard enough? At what point were the tinted glasses slipped on?

People change, you may say. Is that really the case? Maybe so, but to an extent that you don’t know the person anymore? Or maybe you were never really allowed into his/her life.

Perhaps I just cannot live up to those expectations. You can say that I didn’t try hard enough. But I feel tired. I don’t want to have to live my life anymore on someone’s  terms or on someone’s view of what I should or shouldn’t be.

When recognition sets in that the differences divide is too wide to cross, perhaps it is time to part ways. Continually trying to build and mend that bridge is just going to exhaust you.

You can say I am selfish, insincere, can’t be bothered. But I also believe that it takes two to make things work, and that most people are not meant to have a permanent stake in your life, but merely making stops of varying duration there before they continue along their own journey.